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Before Depression, I was just a happy 13 year old girl. I was almost 14, and my grade 8 grad was coming up, I was excited about that. Grad came, I was still happy at this point. I was secretly in love with my best guy friend, nobody knew that except me and a few of my friends. He was moving away June 30th, and I was not going to see him for a long time. I bought him a silver dogtag with his name engraved in it. I gave it to him along with a note that said "I love you" in greek letters, I told him to look up the translation. About a week later, I was enjoying my summer vacay, he still hadn't figured out the translation. I knew he was moving in just a few days, so I had to see him for what could be the last time for months or even years. Me and one of my best friends headed over to his house, we asked him if he wanted to hang out, but he said he was sick, I gave him a hug, and held on for like 7 seconds, before finally letting go. Being in his arms like that - was one of the best moments of my life, I felt safe, happy, and like time had just froze. I never wanted to let go. When I finally let go, we said later, and ran away. we did that on purpose. ( I was soaking wet:P lol wet hug:P ) so we screamed "haha!! now your wet!!" while running away, he laughed too, before going back inside. At first he thought me hugging him was a lil weird, but then he got the joke:P Canada day came up, I forgot he had mvoed away so I invited him to come by IM, he then told me "sorry, I can't..I moved yesterday remember?" I was sad, I realized he was gone, and I might not see him for a while, after the IM convo, I went to my room and cried for a while, my friends invited me out to watch the fireworks, I wasn't depressed at this point either. A few days later, I was going to camp for a week, I finally sent my guy friend the email that said that I was in love with him. I sent it the night before I was going to camp. I went to camp, some nights during that week I cried for a while because I missed him. My other best friend ( not the one who9 came with me for the hug ) was there, she didn't comfort me, because sometimes she didn't know I was crying, the other times, she was homesick, or sleeping. I never let anybody see me cry. I still wasn't depressed - yet. I got back, checked my email, he had replied, he misunderstood me, I replied making it more clear this time. In his reply, he said a few things trying not to hurt me, it did hurt a little though.. Still not depressed, then around mid July, I got a reply, he said he wasn't really cool with it, I know he really really tried again, to be nice, and not hurt me, but it still hurt - this time a little more. I knew he wouldn't understand, and I should have stayed quiet. He stopped talking to me, and that really hurt. Then I became depressed. I felt worthless, ugly, fat, I felt like a waste of air, when my mom said "I love you." I wondered why, when my friends asked me to hang out, I wondered why they wanted to, when people talked to me, I didn't understand why. I felt that the world would be better off without me, I felt like a screwup, that nobody liked me, I didnt want to be alive anymore. I wanted to die. I planned my own death. I was planning on swallowing pills one night, writing a note explaining it. And go to bed, I'd be dead in the morning. The day had come, The clock said 5PM. 3 more hours.. My best friend asked me to hang out, I said sure, I figured I should at least try to enjoy my last few hours. But then the strangest, most wonderful, puzzling thing in the world happened - my guy friend started talking to me again. I was so surprised, I nearly had a heart attack. I told my friend I couldnt make it, and tlaked to my guy friend for 2 hours. He asked me how I'd been, and he was really sweet, I never told him I was planning my death. He had no idea how depressed I was - nobody did. He told me how much I meant to him, that I was a great friend, a great person, smart, funny, thin and meaningful. I told him that in grade 10, I was supposed to move to Australia, but first I needed some opinions, he said "I don't want you to go..but do what you want." He didn't want me to go to Australia, so I decided I was staying, he was glad to hear that. After the conversation was over, I looked at the clock and realized one more hour, then decided I didn't want to die anymore, I also noticed I was smiling, the next few days I smiled, laughed, and was happy again. I was finally happy, I was out of depression, without help, or therapy, the cure was similar to the cause. What I learned for depression was that Love has more side affects then you'll ever imagine. It was the worst time of my life so far, I'm glad it's over with. But I'm also kind of glad I went through it. I'm stronger now, happier now, I still love him, more then ever now. It's harder to break me now, I'm also smarter now, I have a knowledge of depression,
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in over 200 years the nation has survived depressions, recessions, plagues, indian attacks, earthquakes fires, floods, hurricanes, terrorist attacks, the rise of rap music, and a civil war that wasn't all that civil, but will the nation survive another Obama stimulus?
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So I've been wanting to get a tattoo lately that represents surviving depression and all the rough stuff I've been through. I want to start living life cause its just to short to be wasting time focusing on the negative & I think a tattoo will help me move forward in my life, starting fresh. I was thinkin of getting it on my foot or leg. And it can be a picture, design, quote, whatever. thnx :) ♥
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I know Pain,abuse ,going trought divorse ,not been able to have my own childrens (Tumor Related surgicaly removment of both my ovaries and tubes due to the risk of cancer) and other health issues.I know the feeling of wanting to give everything up including life.I actually even have not only comtemplate suicide my self in the past but have attempted to kill my self ,but God protected me and save my life many time.why now my friend is dead and I am alive.We both sufered with depression. I fear that could it be me.why I survive depression and she did not.why she left without saying goodbye.Were is God in all of this,who am I and why I am hear.were she went -
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How can a mildly-extensively depressed person , who has been getting better mood wise , become Happy and stay in that state "for longer" , if he has absolutely no reference points , what so ever.
I mean most of the depressed people, ever since they can remember has been put in the middle of violent circumstances and abusive behaviors which caused them anxiety/depression/panic disorders etc.
What can he do to stay in a state of mental happiness after he survives depression ( and i mean without pills ) ?
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I am a 32 year old woman, I have been seeing my girlfriend for almost ten months. For the past two months, she has been fighting a depression, and most recently losing that battle. She reports sleeplessness, lack of apetite, slow reactions, disappointment with her life's accomplishments (she just turned 40), and I notice her perseverating on negative ideas.
She pulls away from me when I kiss her, can hardly leave her house, says mean things to me, even snaps at me. When I point this out to her, she asks why I "take it." I ask her if she wants to take a break from me and she panics.
What we used to have in common was creativity, work ethic, humor, comitment to community, and other, optomistic attributes. I love her, but I am uncertain as to whether she can love me (right now or ever). I need intimacy now: How long should I stick this out?
I seek answers from those who have survived depression and have been able to maintain intimate relationships.
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My friend had her baby last night at 4 months, the baby did not survive :(
depression.
What can cause someone to go into labor this early?
Could it be because her and her babys father were fighting alot ?
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